The last few months have been filled with much joy, fun, excitement and sweet memories but have also been filled with lots ofquestions, insecurities, challenges and fears.
I LOVE being a mom to my 2 beautiful girls. They make me laugh, make me cry, they make me want to be a better human being. Its funny how parenthood will do that to you. You suddenly realize all your short comings and are inspired to change, to grow so that you can be a better example for these little people.
Our sweet girls teach me so much more than I could ever teach them. Each day I find myself wishing that I could stop time because sweet moments pass so quickly, yet wishing I could go back and do something different (not in a guilty way but more in a wish I would have known that before kinda way, learning kinda way).
I have grown a ton over the last few years. I have rea
lized things about myself that were hidden deep within. I have conquered so many of my insecurities and faced many of my struggles. I
am still learning, still growing and thankful for the self awareness that God has provided. Today I took time to STOP and thank God for His FAITHFULNESS to me.
Today...as I was spending some time with God. The word FAITHFUL came into my mind in BIG, BOLD letters. I pondered the word (means devoted, consistent with truth) and what it has meant to me over the last few years/months/days/hours/minutes (ha lets be honest). My mind was flooded with so many memories, answered prayers and verses that remind me of God's faithfulness.
God is faithful to all his promises and loving toward all he has made. Psalm 145:13
God who has called you into fellowship with his son Jesus Christ is faithful. Psalm 57:10
Because of the Lords great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. Lamentations 3: 22-23
To the faithful you show yourself faithful, to the blameless you show yourself blameless. 2 Samuel 22:26
Your love O Lord reaches to the heavens your faithfulness reaches to the skies. Psalm 57:10
For the word of the Lord is right and true; he is faithful in all he does. Psalm 33:4
I know that each and every day I fall short, I fail, I say something I wish I didn't, I am not enough for Adam, our girls, my friends, my family. But God is ...THE FAITHFUL ONE! I can't tell you how much encouragement, power and and strength this brings to my heart.
More than anything I want it to be said of me that I am/was a faithful wife, mother, friend, and servant of God. I praise God today for his faithful answers to my prayers, the way he provides wisdom like no other in parenting, the way that he intimately knows me, my struggles, my imperfections and the way that he LOVES through his faithfulness. Because of his faithfulness to me how can I not desire to grow in faithfulness toward him. I know that the only way that I can understand and appreciate his faithfulness is to allow him full access to my heart and to seek him with all that I am.
So...this is my prayer....for myself and our girls
One thing I ask of the Lord, this is what I seek; that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to seek him in His temple.
How have you seen God's faithfulness in your life lately?